ASC Epilogue: Fluttershy

Oct. 4th

Dear Diary,

I'm starting this because Doctor Ainsworth told me it would be good to have a place to keep my thoughts. She said that when traumatic things happen to ponies, it's good to have a place to sort through them. I don't really know if it will help. Sorry Diary, I didn't mean to say you're useless, it's just that I've been through a lot lately.

The doctors in Trottingham tell me that I'm alright to stay on my own, but I'm not really sure what I'm supposed to do. Doctor Ainsworth is a really nice pony; she said I was doing remarkably well, all things considered, and that unless I felt a personal need I didn't have to keep coming to the appointments. She told me she wanted to see me again in a month just to check up on me and once a month for awhile after that. She's so nice being so concerned about me, I'm sure she has lots of other patients but it's so kind of her to make sure I'm alright.

Well, I'm going to go to bed now Diary, thanks for listening.


Oct. 5th, 5:30am

Good Morning Diary,

I had a bad dream last night, it was about the place we were sent, I dreamt that Twilight never made it to me, that Rainbow Dash just kept doing terrible  Sorry Diary, I guess there's no sense worrying about something like that. It was just a bad dream after all.

I'm going to see Twilight today, we're going to have lunch together, I'm bringing some of the new tea leaves I got from a nice merchant pony, he said they were from Fillydelphia, I'm sure they'll make delicious tea.

I don't like being along lately, I used to be ok with it, I liked the quiet and the feeling of solitude but now, I guess it feels like I'm being watched? I know that sounds silly Diary, thanks for listening anyway, if I get back before it gets too late I'll tell you all about my day. I'm off to do the chores and feed the animals, Angel has been hitting me with a carrot for the past two minutes; I think he's hungry. I'm not sure why he doesn't just eat the carrot.


Oct. 7th, 9:21pm

Dear Diary,

I think I'm probably not as well as Doctor Ainsworth thought, I feel like I'm being watched all the time and it's really hard to concentrate on anything. All the time I was at Twilights I kept watching out of the corner of my eye for something. I don't even know what I'm watching for.

Well, I'm sure if I wasn't at least mostly ok Doctor Ainsworth wouldn't have told me I was, I'm sure it's just nerves, she did say I should talk to you to keep my thoughts I order. I think it's working, I do feel better, I'm so glad I have you Diary, I guess Doctor Ainsworth knew what she was talking about huh?

Not that she wouldn't of course, I mean, she's a doctor and all.

Sorry Diary, I'm a little worn out, after tea I went to the spa with Rarity, she wasn't very talkative though, but it was nice being around her again. She likes Doctor Ainsworth too but she says her dress went out of fashion several years ago. I thought it was a very nice dress. I didn't say that though, you know how Rarity gets when she starts talking about fashion. She's been acting kind of strange lately, really distant, I'm worried about her Diary, but at least she's keeping up on her visits to Doctor Ainsworth. I'm probably just being worrisome, we all went through a terrible thing. Well, I'm going to bed now Diary, thanks for listening.


Oct. 10th, 4:45pm

Dear Diary,

Sorry I haven't written lately, I've been really busy. I don't think I'm okay at all. Ditzy Doo was just here, she's taking a letter from me to Doctor Ainsworth to make an appointment; I had more nightmares this morning. I'm really worried Diary, I guess it's okay to tell you.  I decided to go over to Sugarcube Corner today, to pay my respects I guess, Pinkie Pie did save us after all, or whatever that was down there.

Anyway I walked up to it when I saw somepony moving inside, in the kitchen, I wondered if the Cakes had decided to come back so I went inside. It was dark and quiet, there was no sound at all, I figured I must have imagined it so I turned to leave and saw a streamer hanging from the doorway. It wasn't there when I came in, I know it wasn't because I would've seen it, it was hanging low enough.

I think it's all in my head but after what happened I'm not sure. I've been going to see Twilight more, we have tea and sit for a while, sometimes talk about things, it's nice, it feels like old times when things were quiet and everything was fine.

I'm going to go see Doctor Ainsworth the day after tomorrow; I'll tell you what happened at the appointment.



*Illegible scribbles*



Oct. 12th, 5:34pm

Where did those scribbles come from? I'm sure I didn't write those there. Has someone been reading this? Has someone been in my house? I'm scared Diary. Who's been writing in you? I'm going to talk to Twilight Sparkle, I'm sure she'll be able to tell me something about this. I'm bringing you with me too.

I guess in the meantime I'll tell you about the visit. I told Doctor Ainsworth about my worries, she seemed concerned. She gave me some sleeping pills that will make the nightmares go away, at least I hope they will, I haven't had a decent night of sleep in a while. Anyways I'm going to Twilight's and you're coming with me. I think this might be my last entry for a while.



*several pages of scribbles*



Oct. 15th, 4:50pm

I haven't made an entry in this stupid book since I opened it at Twilight's and found six pages covered in scribbles after my last entry. I don't like this book anymore. So I'm going to burn it behind my house. Goodbye Diary, thanks at least for the first few days, they helped at little.



*Charred sections of the book illegible*



*Last Entry*


I burned you, I know I did, why are you back in my room? Why are you still here? There wasn't anything left. Why won't you go away?